Words that profess love always get to me... argh!... I'm such a sap!

"What have you done to me? I'm so in love with you right now. I don't think I can let you go. I don't want to share you either. I love you so much it hurts..." - this from a guy who wasn't always so emotional when it comes to the yucky love stuff... it counts a lot!

I love him with all my heart.

Christmas just went by so quickly. My group performed at the Manila Peninsula which is equivalent to The Plaza of Manhattan. We basically sang carols and pop songs to the delighted crowd. Made me feel all good inside to know that we were able to entertain the people who watched us perform.

With the three nights that we sang our hearts out to the guests of the hotel, my honey wasn't able to see or hear us. He was unavailable. He felt bad that he couldn't devote much time for me the past few days. I understand. Commitments can't be easily dissed. They are kept. I would just want him to know that for as long as I know that if he could go, he would've, then I'm content. Intentions have plus points too.

He gave me a bottle of Clinique Happy... and told me that he can stay over at my place (note: I still live with my parents which is pretty common here in the Philippines given that I'm still 24). I actually think that the staying over at my place thingie was better than the perfume, but who am I to complain when receiving gifts, I love gifts.

His blog talks about some things which happened the last few days which I really don't want to talk about much. Maybe sometime soon. I do however love the fact that the outcome of it all is that we both ended up loving each other more.

I miss having a bialy and coffee with him at this cafe where we had breakfast the day before Christmas. I love the fact that my mom acknowledges him as my boyfriend and that I don't have to "hide" his existence. He's legit! My mom's starting to become a flame dame... she'd make such queer comments that would get me frozen. My mom's cool and I love her.

Today's been freakishly busy for me. Tons of backlog with work. I hate it. Annoying subordinates. They take their vacations before completing their tasks. I swear to God. I wish they'd be more considerate sometimes. *sigh* Well, on a lighter note, my friends and I are meeting up with a friend who entered the brotherhood for La Sallian Brothers (FSC). He's been there for more than a year and I would think that during the holiday season, they would get time to spend with their families meaning time to go out as well. I hope he's doing great. I'll catch up with him and the other at Greenbelt Mall in half an hour. I'm suddenly craving for food from MYLK (My Little Kitchen). Oh wellz... :)

It's been eight months with Jagard and I think I'm loving him more now than ever before. Mostly because of the fact that I know him more now. I've seen how he is. We've gone through much the past few months. Of course I am also anticipating more things to come, good and bad. We're still planning that wild trip to Bangkok... hopefully soon. I can't wait. Last night was great. Gave him a semi lap dance. Ha ha ha... It was fun. I loved talking to him face to face, eye to eye. Only an inch of space between our faces. He said I have nice eyes. What a sweetie.

This week will be another grind for me. Things just keep coming. I really hope I can take this much pressure. Been listening to this CD my honey lent me. It's actually quite good. Various sounds. They call it World Music. I guess I should know what World Music is but I can't really say that I do. But this CD is giving me insights on what various music can be like. I always liked Enya.

Hiya peeps... I have yet to gain inspiration to write the lost journal entry... meanwhile... my honey now has his own blog. You could check it out by clicking this link --> Jaguar Lord.

Most of the time, my honey really ends up getting me all reved up for something exciting. Other times, he gets me to unleash my inner Tao, my Oprah. The weekend was quite interesting. Got to talk to him about ourselves, and how we see each other. I'm glad he now knows that everytime I'm with him, and taken to somewhere alien to me... like a comic book store... I feel like I'm transported into his realm. The realm of the Jagard. Funny thing is, I feel safe. Mostly because I know he's there to show me around. I love it. :) I like the fact that I can share these short moments with him. I'd like for him to know that each visit to these stores get me more and more indulged in his world. Not to be sucked in but to gain the ability to live in it. A dual citizenship of sorts. Bohemia and Arcadia (can't think of a cooler counterpart).

The week's a mess.. I need to organize my time!

What a weekend...

Friday... helluva drive to my alma mater (De La Salle University). It took me almost two hours to get to a place that's hmmm... maybe 4 mi away from my office. Anyway, I was riding with a friend and eventually dropped her off in front of the university and I went off to pick up my honey at the nearby mall. He was so pooped when I saw him get in the car. Poor baby. We headed back to the school and parked the car. Knowing we were late, we still enjoyed the nice cool breeze (yes folks, there was a breeze in Manila). I was singling out some spots in the school to my honey, mentioning names of buildings and stuff like that. It was fun. Showing him where I spent some of the more unforgetable moments of my life.

Got to the La Salle main chapel, people were already singing. My friends were already seated on the left side of the chapel. The atmosphere was amazing. The performers (also friends of mine) were doing arias from various operas. These singers have not had formal vocal training and they sing as if they were professionals. Amazing really. Last year I was part of the list of performers and did "Nessun Dorma" from Pucini's Turandot. When we got there, I was hearing Vittoria by some composer being sung by a friend and she sounded amazing. All the performers did. It was such a treat!

After the recital, we all decided to head on out for dinner (late dinner that is). Went to The Power Plant Mall and ate at Dencio's. It was so much fun as people would be throwing all these side comments at each other. My honey was away somewhere to check out Page One (a bookstore) and see what they have to offer. Apparently, they have the same books as in Powerbooks, only more expensive. So we chatted the night away till it was about 1ish in the morning and we all had to head off.

The next day was a bit "messy" as plans to head to Tagaytay were still up in the air. Down to the last minute when I asked my dad to take me to me and my friend's agreed on rendezvous. -to be continued- (i think i just ended up deleting my post! FUCK!!!!)