Looking at the Afternoon Sun

From my office (er cubicle) window, I can see the afternoon sun shining down on the city of Makati. I feel the warmth of it despite the airconditioned space. People are minding their own business and thing are just casually taking place.

Work has been great so far, minus birth pains of course, but generally, yeah... it has been great.

Going through my big cubicle I see photos from when I was with my mom in Bangkok, that Starbucks on Soi Langsuan will forever be my favorite. It exudes so much coziness and warmth that one feels at home when seated on one of the suede upholstered sofas. I also see a picture I took of the detail work done to most Thai temples. I never thought there were actually glass chips embedded on the walls. Glass chips of different colors. Blues, reds, whites. The gold paint adds drama and elegance to the structure.

I look above and a sheet of green construction paper is filled with dedications from my staff here at work. The best of which reads "you're probably one of the best things that happened to me" (from one of my staff whom I have worked with for over three years).

Everything else is just clutter and some amount of effort to place decor on my table. A Thai elephant, a Danish mermaid souvenir, an Indian picture frame of a "crystal powder" drawing... heck, even the Jollibee figures from my recent birthday bash (my staff surprised me).

Life's been good so far. I do, however, remember what a friend told me about a philosophy him and his friend though of. That God is either JUST or GENEROUS. Makes you think right? I think He's being quite generous to me lately. I wonder how Just we will be soon.

Escape

es-cap-ism

–noun
the avoidance of reality by absorption of the mind in entertainment or in an imaginative situation, activity, etc.

It is odd to find oneself in a state where you just do not want to deal with reality. When friends become characters in a movie. When work becomes a haven for not thinking about what is real and happening. When everything else in your life, except being who you are, is no longer real.

Times like these, I end up thinking why am I where I am at now. What brought me here? Why do I have to be here? Questions that do not seem to get answered with how I am coping with things at the moment. It is these exact questions why I choose to just focus on other things instead of myself.

Watching episode after episode of Grey's Anatomy and Desperate Housewives, catching the latest feel good movie, or going out drinking pretty much all week. Activities that get me out of reality so I do not have to deal with it. It sounds pretty sad, or weird, but I find myself wondering if that is who I really am.

It just dawned on me that I am someone who would rather live a movie than be *sigh* me.

Nearing the Day

In a few days I will be two years away from the big 3-0. Thinking of a way to celebrate, I thought of taking a trip but would have to be in October. Jetting off to Thailand with my mom (her big 6-0) is coming too. That will be 6 days in Bangkok, staying with a good friend Steve, and cruising the streets in a 7-series BMW... with a chauffer. THE LIFE!!

Weekends have been mostly alright. Lately, I get to spend Saturday nights with my best friends, mostly dinner then coffee or a movie. Can't ask for anything else, except maybe spending that night with someone special as well. But trust me, it's all good.

Work's been really hectic as I'm organizing a launch for the office. Once again I'm doing something I feel like doing. Major issue hit me though last Friday as I just found out that the reception area won't be used to its fullest. The current training room tables can't be removed since they are all linked together by a stupid electric cable hence, we would have to just push them towards the wall and pray to God they can be covered.

I just wish, for my sake, that it will all turn out ok. Three more days and it's showtime. Pray that it works out alright.

Have a good week y'all! Hugs to mah peeps (hahaha, so ghetto)

The Devil Wears Prada

A few years ago, this book hit me the moment I saw it at a bookstore. Then, I wasn't too much into reading yet. I thought to myself, I'll read it after they make a movie out of it.

Well, guess I know have to read it.

I caught the film a couple of weeks back, thanks to torrent sites, I was able to download a (pretty crappy) video file of the movie. What can I say but it was everything I expected.

The performances of the actors in the film were stellar. Loved it, especially Merryl "Miranda" Streep. What I loved the most though were the fashions in the movie. Thanks to Patricia Field for the styling, it was one for the books. Think the best of the best in Sex and the City fashion.

Key parts in the movie to look out for if you're a fashion savant, the intro... shoes galore... round toe, black patent pumps, damn... thank God I'm a guy. Had I been a woman, I would probably have bought those pairs.

Another fab scene was when the main character became dressy... special effects of her going to work (on different days) in different outfits. The white trench screamed Donna Karan but I can't be sure.

Lastly, the cutest look I saw was when "Andy" wore a black boat neck knit with an elbow-length sleeve over a plain white button down long-sleeved shirt, (what looked like) herringbone-print pants, accented with a newsboy hat (which also seemed like it was plaid or herringbone-print). QUE FABULOSA!!!

It's Been A While

And here's the reason why it took so long to blog... I bought a new vehicle! Inspired by my addiction with the series 24, I got a black SUV. Though not an Expedition, it's close:



Ford Escape 3.0 with a V6 engine. It's got the coolest interior, I just love beige interiors. A moon/sun-roof, 6-disc changer, leather seats... I can almost make love to this car simply because it's so damn HOT!!!

...... on other news, work has been very kind to me. Keep praying that we all may continue to be blessed by God.

Mantra For A Few Days

"Expectations are only meant for me and not for others, especially creepy sons-of-a-bitches"... hahahahaha

That's 4 Years People

The longest relationship I've ever been in was almost 3 years. To be exact, 2 years, 10 months, and 2 weeks (give or take 5 days).

I just realized now that I've been blogging for over 4 years. I never thought I'd be doing it for so long. Especially when I have on and off seasons, I'm just surprised I'm still at it.

I would love to do blogging from my pda one of these days. I just need to get that WiFi card so I can do so any damn day.

Lately, I've been having so many thoughts on what I should be doing. Options came up from the fact that I will be saving now. Given the scenario, what am I to save up for:

- my own condo either in Makati or in Global City
- my own car, what am i to get? A Fortuner or that cute Suzuki Swift? or maybe that new Civic?
- my first kick ass watch. Just like my fabulous Singapore-based friend, I want my own Cartier. I've been dying for one since I laid eyes on an actual Tank Francaise 10 years ago.
- my first designer bag, my fashion brothers know that each and every one of us dream of having any of them lush bags, Vuitton, Gucci, Prada, Hermes... any one of them would be a wish come true for me.

So there, that's my dilemma. I feel like I'm rich but I'm not. Just someone who has shallow goals simply because I'm true to myself.

Uh, I wonder if I'll have something done... cheeksuction??? hahahaha

Thought About it Again

The Soundtrack of My Life:

my previous relationship: A House is not a Home by Dionne Warwick

my life after love: Since You've Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson

my present life: Living In The City by Stevie Wonder

who I'm hoping to find: The Last Time by Eric Bennet

What's the Soundtrack of YOUR Life?

Don't Know What To Do

It's half past seven in the evening and I'm still at work. Trust me, I have a life. Now, I'm just not in the mood. I haven't been in the mood in the last several weeks.

Don't get me wrong, I'm in a new job and loving it... a lot. I'm in the company of fun people and loving it too. The other aspects of my life are what's bugging me. I'm just feeling apathetic towards them. Actually, it's not really them, it's just my romantic life. I have none.

Could it be that I'm watching too much Grey's Anatomy that I end up being like Meredith Grey? At least I'm not hung up on a "McDreamy". At least I'm not fucking around with anyone available (although I'm not really sure if I would if there is someone available).

To change the oddly depressing topic, I just bought three pairs of shoes from WADE in Glorietta. Great purchase. Spent around $100 for three pairs. Can't top that. One formal wear pair, another for going out, and the last one for a casual ensemble. I also got this really cool laptop bag from Springfield... $50 bucks people. Great purchases if I must say so. That weekend of shopping really lifted my spirits.

Enjoy Hump Day!

It's Tougher Now

It's quite strange. I thought it would be easier for me to make my blog entries now that I have a pc at home, my place is set up with WiFi connection, and I also have a laptop, BUT NO! I think it's really dedication.

Anyways, it's three more days till Philippine Idol auditions at PICC. I'm still thinking if I'll go. I already thought of songs to use for the auditions. Maybe I'll decide on the last minute. Damn auditions, the only thing that annoys me is the requirements (birth certificate, passport, etc.).

I woke up today at 7AM with a massive headache. I didn't even drink last night. Hell, if I knew I would wake up like this I would've gone out drinking.

I'm super hungry, I'll just have a shake. I'm gaining weight again so I have to lessen my intake and actually start to exercise. This situation's lessening my chances of snatching a hottie. ;) hahaha

Shout outs to my friends out there! Hugs to you all!

Yet Another Beginning

It's true what they say that with patience, one reaps what he sows.

I've been on a roller coaster ride all year long with my career, which for me takes highest priority in my life right now. As of this day, I have transferred to a new company and so far it has been giving me much to look forward to.

I am not about to talk about my love life as there nothing much to talk about. It's been quite boring and any attempts at making it more lively always seem to end up in failure. So, what's a guy to do but focus all energies on more fruitful things.

Still living in my condo and it might not look the same as what you see below but I think it's still something. For someone who doesn't have a lot, I'm pretty blessed. Which is one of the reasons why I'm constantly thankful to God for having given me so much graces.

That said, I'm continuously on the lookout for whatever it is he would want me to do. I'm not about to join the Peace Corps or rally along Catholic Extrimists protesting the showing of The Da Vinci Code. I'm seeking out opportunities to do good and charitable work.

I'll definitely visit more often as I really have no excuse not to. Well at least, for now.