Start of a new week, things can never be better. It's the start of me and my honey's third month together. We have very recently went through (and maybe still are going through) some issues which I'd rather not talk about. In a way, I'm ok with that fact that it happened this early, so at least we'll be able to hurdle the issues at this stage of our relationship. It seems that I've hurt my honey's feelings and I completely lost his trust in me. That is really hard to regain. I do express my deepest apologies to him. I want him to know that I will do anything in my power to gain his confidence back so he can trust me again. (just to pre-empt anyone here, I did NOT cheat on him)

Thanks honey for giving me the chance of loving you. I will always love you. Days have been better since you came into my life. Here's to hoping to live more months and years with you.

"... sometime, that sometime will turn to forever, for all time...
... somewhere, that somewhere will not just be one place, but everywhere..."

"... our love, like love, it's what it is, it's what we've got..."

I love you!

I have recently been absorbed in the world of Magic... not the David Blane kind... the cards kind. It came about when I wanted to get into the things my honey is into. In this case he's into Magic cards and video games. I have loved video games since I can remember, I just forgot how to appreciate them when I started high school and all throughout college. Now I'm close to getting hooked. Good thing we don't have a PS (1 or 2) at home. Magic, I did my first unfinished duel last night. It was fun. I like the fact that I get to share his interests now.

At this time, I have to get him into my interests. Music and sports. I'm into performance music, choral music, tennis and hmmm... that would be it for now. More interests coming from me would exhaust my honey.

Responded to my baby with the lines...
"I'm glad that I am able to impart some values I have learned from life thru actions and the way I live my life. It(being responsible) is something I've really felt strongly about. I'm glad that I can influence you in that way."
..."When one is able to get a hold of himself and has control over things, it means they have control of their lives. Small things like controlling certain urges really leads to an overpowering feeling. When you know you can tell yourself what to do and not give in to cravings or the urges then you are on your way to controlling your life."

I don't know if I was able to get my message across. I hope I did.

Woke up this morning with a message on my phone... my honey is worried about us...

Read an email from him. It was a response to this mail I sent him about a list of three words people should sincerely say in a relationship, of any form. After the mail, what was left in my heart were the words he "uttered" ... "I still have much to learn about you and your feelings, quirks and idiosyncrasies. And if it takes me forever to walk that path, I'll gladly walk with you. I love you."

To you, my baby... I love you too.

Weekend's over and I'm back to the daily grind. Friday night was amazing. We went to this bar called Acquario. Amazing. I felt like I was in a trendy bar in Manhattan. All white with blue lights. Philippe Starck looking furniture. It was so cool. I was with friends the entire evening (including my honey). A few hours before heading to Acquario, we were at doing karaoke and it felt good to sing again after how many weeks of no singing. I blasted a few songs some local, mostly foreign. My friends had me start up with Mariah's Never Too Far Away... argh! I was like, darn. It did stretch my voice immediately but I thought it was too much. Good thing though was they enjoyed it. Then did a few 80s music like Fra Lippo Lippi and James Ingram. Some local stuff. Uhm. I think we closed with a Swing Out Sister song, Breakout. There are karaoke clubs here in Manila that have private rooms so we could embarrass ourselves more.

The next day was mellow. Woke up at 2ish in the afternoon. Had late lunch with the parental units. Slept a bit and got ready for anticipated mass at half past 5. I was going to sing with the choir. Met up with my honey after mass. We went to the nearby mall to hang around and do some window shopping. We headed off to watch "40 Days and 40 Nights" which I thought was funny. Lest for those ignorant guys at the back row whom we thought were there just to annoy the other people watching the movie. Argh! Took my honey home. It was a quite evening.

Woke up earlier for Sunday. Lounged around the house and didn't get my lazy ass working a thing. Had a heavy breakfast. Coffee and newspaper. Ok ok... there was no newspaper. I said that so you would think I'm one who's into current events. Went to the mall with my mom to get stuff for my room. My new Ethan Allen looking bed is arriving in a couple of weeks so I've been searching for the best sheets I could find.

Which brings us to the here and now... I'll check in again in a while... laterz.

Today's been very slow and calm. We got treated with ice cream to lessen the depression with in our group. This was because of the loss we experienced last night. Things were great at work. Less pressure than usual. It's been a great day so far. Met up with my honey at the mall. We hung out at a deli and talked about things. It was a good talk as we were able to iron more things about our relationship. He said something like everything he does with me is never boring or never uninteresting. That's so sweet of him to say something like that. We're off to a karaoke thing tonight. I'm going to be singing a few songs for him. Hopefully he likes them.

Just a quick update. We lost the game. Darn! Oh well, there's always next year. Being better prepared and well skilled for next season would be a task for all of the team members. Sometimes things we pray for aren't given to us in the time we want them because God always knows when the right time is for our prayers to be answered. FUN FUN FUN!

Beep beep beep...
My cell phone (a.k.a. my alarm clock) woke me up this morning. As I got up from bed a sudden gush of pain went thru me. I felt most of it coming from my right leg. First thought that came to my head was what's going to happen to our game tonight (I had a volleyball game tonight, it's the last game of the championships). After telling my honey what had happened, I felt bad that he thinks he's guilty for my minor "injury". Too much tossing and turning. He he he... I was able to wrap it with a bandage and tried out driving to work. The day was slow. I wore sandals in the office for fear of stressing my leg because of the leather shoes. I thought to myself why wearing sandals in the office isn't allowed when all you end up with is being more comfortable. Bugger. Oh well. I have constantly told my honey to not feel guilty with my situation. I hope he realizes that it wasn't his fault that I gave too much... er... pleasure. He he he... The big game's up in a couple of hours. Hopefully we get the match! Right now, all I can think of is being in the arms of the one I love and just be cradled in his gentle embrace. I love him!

It has been such a hectic and just absolutely tiring day. Almost hellish. Hopefully things get better later as I am to meet up with my honey. Miss him so much. I haven't seen him in almost a week. Pressures from work really get me so drained and I end up thinking how much more I can take. But I have never been one who quits. I can't wait for the karaoke session we have this Friday. Set me up some songs to try out. Hopefully it goes well. I feel like I need a shower. :)

I know, I know... it's been a while since last I posted. Things have just been really great the last month. Me and my honey (that's what I call him now) are close to two months being together. I can't wait. Things just happen and all for a reason. We learn more and more about each other. I'm loving it. Each person becomes more and more mature about how to deal with situations when they arise. I end up learning how to deal with his quirks and he is starting to learn about how to deal with mine. =) we went to this country club 2 hours away from the city and spent the night there. Cuddled in bed. Amazing. It felt so right. Did things together in the bathroom, his side and my side. It was really cute. I really love it! I love him!