After a decent talk with my honey last night, I am now firmly resolved to improve myself physically. I need to get rid of this horrible (absolutely horrible) gut. Lately I've been noticing that my pants are getting a tad too tight on the waist so that's not very good.

I used to proclaim my fabulousness because I don't go over 170 lbs in normal conditions. But last night, while talking to my honey over the phone, we were chatting about excercises for the calf muscles when I suddenly stepped on the weighing scale in my bathroom. To my horror, I saw the numbers 180 go past the marker/indicator. I almost fainted. If not for my honey calming me down, I would've fell of the weighing scale and hit my head on the floor. After calming me down, he was able to get me off the scale and relax a bit more. He then encouraged me to go step on the scale one more time. With my eyes closed, I stepped on the scale. Right foot, then left. I was on the friggin' scale. Openned my eyes. Looked down. WHEW. I'm 175 lbs!!!! YEE HAW... I know I know, it's still not as fabulous as I would've wanted it to be. Now I'm aiming, not for weight reduction, but visible results. Less gut, leaner look. More streamlined, and I need a friggin' chest!

Food intake for the day:
BREAKFAST
five protein cookies with semi sweet chocolate chip
non fat milk
SNACK
cup of coffee
small portion of rice cake

.... hope I can last. Pray for me will yah! Thanks!

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Just a quick one... I can't believe it's been 11 months since me and honey hooked up. I can't wait for the next months till forever. :)

In this world where every human being seeks for stability, certain things come to my mind. Before anything else, I'm an artist. A son, a boyfriend, and a best friend. Being an artist, I don't think I'm living the life I want. I once chatted with my manager (he was in Dublin) and we were talking about how crappy things are in Manila, why were we working so late, and other shit like that. I told him that it was just the way us Manila folks work. He told me that it's not worth it. Asked me what I would do if I were given the choice (anything). I answered, sing. When he asked why I'm not singing I was lost for words. I had nothing substantial to give him as a response. Am I to be one of those people in the movies who never went for their dreams and just became content with easy living?

I've always imagined being an artist (quasi Bohemian at most). There too much running through my veins and I fear that one day I'll just burst... into song. :)

I was told by a friend that it shouldn't be that difficult to live that dream, but not in the Philippines. I agree. Stability is still a big factor for us Filipinos. I then told that manager that, maybe it's the encouragement, the push I need that's not there. I'm thinking I'll need someone to drop kick my ass on a stage to sing my guts out.

So, should people still reach for their dreams given the high amount of risk involved? Should I attempt for being the person I truly am? What the FUCK should I do???

Just thought I'd post on something that's been on my mind. I have affirmed to myself that I will be moving out from my parents' house an live on my own. Me and my honey haven't finalized plans but there are plans of moving in together. We won't be together all days of the week though as we would definitely need time for ourselves and be with our respective families on weekends or special occassions. I am just curious as to how things will pan out. If we'll actually do well with living in one place for a long period of time. I'm also hoping that we wont end up on each other's necks by the first month. I have heard some stories but I don't know if those stories would apply to us. Watching Sex and The City isn't helping much. I don't know if I will actually be used to having someone around that often. I remembered the whole single eccentricities we all have would get dumped because we are sharing a place with another person when we live in together. Do we really have to sacrifice our single lifestyle for a piece of bliss? Why is moving in so damn complicated when all we really want is to be close to the person we love? Are gay men really for domesticated paradise?

Damn you ... that was such a funny post on "gay roomies" from Dan Savage's column... which is why I'm going to link to it here.

By golly does time fly...

I can't believe I have been out from my journal for ages. It's been too long. Too many unforgettable memories that will remain where I kept them... in my heart and mind. Memories of my great relationship with my honey. We've been doing great so far. The bad things that came our way have been good reminders of ourselves and our individuality. Like I said to my honey, the conflicts or issues we've been through end up being lessons learned in my mind. They're not at all bad memories or bad experiences. More of things I will be charging to experience, at least my wisdom account would improve.

Sang my honey a song one night. He cried. I guess it's because he felt what I was feeling the moment I was singing to him. For those curious about what song it was, I did "Someone Like You" from the musical Jekyll and Hyde. It's one of my favorite love songs. My honey even wrote about the experiece (me singing to him) you can check it here. I loved every minute of it. The song represented everything I felt towards my honey.

Love you baby!

By golly does time fly...

I can't believe I have been out from my journal for ages. It's been too long. Too many unforgettable memories that will remain where I kept them... in my heart and mind. Memories of my great relationship with my honey. We've been doing great so far. The bad things that came our way have been good reminders of ourselves and our individuality. Like I said to my honey, the conflicts or issues we've been through end up being lessons learned in my mind. They're not at all bad memories or bad experiences. More of things I will be charging to experience, at least my wisdom account would improve.

Sang my honey a song one night. He cried. I guess it's because he felt what I was feeling the moment I was singing to him. For those curious about what song it was, I did "Someone Like You" from the musical Jekyll and Hyde. It's one of my favorite love songs. My honey even wrote about the experiece (me singing to him) . I loved every minute of it. The song represented everything I felt towards my honey.

Love you baby!

Sheesh.. new year... beginning...

I got this email today from a friend, makes me think these are things I should start focussing on, again.

More often than not, we let the idea of LIFE eat us up. but what if we just stuck to the basic rules of life? You know, the things that we learned when we were just kids. basic rules that seems so simple, we take them for granted...or is it just that as we grow older and wiser(?) we find it harder to follow them...


Don't lie.

Don't cheat.

Don't be selfish.

Be good.

Say your prayers daily.

Don't take your friends for granted.

Eat your vegetables.

Smile.

Say thank you.

Love unconditionally.

New year... beginning the year with my arms around you, my honey, will always be cherished. Here's to more new years with you! I love you!